[Our Spanish door poses a very good question: what is truth, exactly?]
[You may decide for yourself, but the door requests that you check John 18.]
[You may decide for yourself, but the door requests that you check John 18.]
Like I've said before, I did not want to hear from Henderson and McKinney when I watched The Laramie Project: 10 Years Later. There were a lot of reasons for that which left me conflicted after the performance. But one upside to hearing them speak, I figured, was that perhaps we'd finally hear the truth come out. At first, when I started to think over McKinney's revelations in the play, for a moment of two I thought that we had finally heard the truth. But the more I reflected back on the different versions I've heard and read, I realized that I don't think that was the case. I started to see more and more holes in the new stories until I couldn't trust their version of events. And the more I thought about it, I didn't trust what they told us in the 20/20 interview-- and they told us then that they weren't telling the truth when they talked to the cops the first time, either. The more I mentally sorted through all this narrative debris, I started to wonder: have they ever told the truth? And if they did, how on earth would we ever know?
There is an old saying that in war, the first casualty is the truth. With the two plays of The Laramie Project, we can see a similar principle at work: Matt Shepard was the first casualty of McKinney and Henderson's rage. The truth behind his murder, it seems, was the second. It may be time to finally realize that of the three people who know the truth of that night, one is dead, and the other two, after so many years of rehashing this story for different purposes, have apparently lost the ability to tell us.
At this point, I feel like I can no longer treat McKinney and Henderson as capable of telling me anything about what happened on that night. If there was ever any truth there, it's lost. All that leaves me with is to see their stories as just that-- narratives they tell us. Each narrative is an attempt at a relationship between them and their audience, told for a specific purpose. Certainly, each narrative contains elements of the truth, but we have so few tools to help us discern what the truth is that the forensic truth of what happened that night might just be gone forever. All we can do is look at these different narrative strains and evaluate them for their purpose and effectiveness. What are the advantages to telling each story, and how were these narratives applied? What were the perpetrators responding to when they told each story?